1. Notes: 1 / 6 days ago 

   Friends?

   She said she wanted to be friends. Shes stopped following me on twitter and now I never see her on gchat even though she’s on it more than I am. Did she block me? Is she unfriendjng me on facebook next?What was that part about you wanting to be friends?

   The optimist in me says it’s her way of distancing herself so she can move on. The pessimist in me says she’s a complete liar and has an amazing ability to cry for 2 straight hours. Sheeeeeesh…..

2. 1 week ago 

   breakups suck

   yes they certainly do. that is all.

3. 1 week ago 

   adult stuff (pouring my heart all over the internet, you’re welcome)

   so officially split up with the gf yesterday. we had a talk about our relationship earlier in the week and she let me know she thought we would be further along than we are. she said she needed some time to do some soul searching and really think, so i gave her some space. we were supposed to spend the day together yesterday, but on friday, she said she’s ready to talk saturday, so i took that as a cue of what was coming. even though we had the talk earlier in the week, it was still really difficult officially breaking up. this was real, and really hit me hard, particularly because we had just spent the previous weekend in milwaukee and she met a ton of my friends. she said she had felt like something was missing for the last month or so, but she kept going hoping to find it, and she never did. she told me that i did everything right in the relationship and that it wasn’t fair to me to be together if she didn’t think she would ever find what was missing.

   i told her that i wish i knew that the night we talked in my car for a few hours that would be the last time i would be seeing her, so i could maybe try and prep myself. but she said she hoped that wasn’t the last time we see each other and she wants to be friends, and still wants me to be in her life and vice versa. i dunno, can that even work? what if we’re friends, and then one of us starts dating someone new, how’s that gonna be? she said she’ll give me some time before being in touch, but said i can contact her whenever. would i just be setting myself up for disaster?

   i guess my conscience can be clear, she kept saying throughout everything that i did everything right and there’s nothing that i couldve done to change things. she said some really sweet things to me, which might be a first in a breakup, which REALLY made things difficult. she doesn’t regret any moment we spent together and she was truly happy for our time together. this is the first girl in a really, really long time that i truly cared about, that really meant something to me, and the first time ever i had like a mature, adult breakup that didn’t result in a lot of cursing and record collection getting thrown out a window or something.

   being the eternal optimist, hopefully some good can come of this. i can (and will) go to a bunch more concerts, i’ll have some time to really concentrate on school/freelance work/developing my design skillz, and who knows what else. but yeah, it’s been a tough few days, and will probably be a tough few weeks. but life goes on, and now, i’m suddenly free this friday for that los campesinos! show at metro…..

4. Notes: 1 / 3 weeks ago 

   shameless

   me: i'm making a shameless playlist for my drive to milwaukee this weekend.

   ryan: let's see. matchbox twenty, joey mcintyre, backstreet boys, destiny's child.....so you're introducing your girlfriend to phil the college years?

   me: pretty much.
5. 1 month ago 

   duck tongue

   last night, took the gf to a nice fancy seafood restaurant for dinner. believe me, i stuck out like a sore thumb. anyway, i ate duck tongue.

   that is all.

   merry christmas eve.

6. 1 month ago 

   my family starring in its own reality show?

   me: my dad just got stuck in his jacket like it was an old school starter pullover. and it is not a pullover. this might be the best dinner ever.

   craig: it's times like these i wish your family was the kardashians.
7. 1 month ago 

   one of the many reasons i love the black keys (and for the record, have loved them from the beginning)

   Pitchfork: Let's say will.i.am calls you right now and asks you to collaborate on the new Black Eyed Peas album. Would you?

   Patrick Carney: Uh, no. Stuff like that would be tempting because it would probably mean a million dollar check. But you would have to live with yourself.

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